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Maybe this has shown already in other posts of the last months: I have come to look back more, identifying long term effects of magic. I wonder are any of the lurkers which seem to be around interested youngsters, who are merely starting it all? I feel like saying some things clearly to those, if they read it…

The development that drew me to magic started effectively with 16, I was 17 when I produced a first deliberate result. Now I am 30. My life is not perfect. But with 16, life seemed unbearable to me. Now, life has got a strong appeal to me, or rather it has a charm, or rather it’s a lot of fun. Some major wishes I had when I was 16 are fulfilled by now and stay fulfilled, some were not. There were several instances of little fun things happening which I had wished for, too.

There was more than one crisis on the path – I can call it a path by now, there’s a path-structure to it. C.G. Jung tells you openly there can be a crisis or several on the path he suggested, the Golden Dawn doesn’t deny there can be such things on their suggested path.

I have been learning all the time, in fact I keep learning and am happy about it. Many questions I had with 16 were answered, so that I know.

And even that fear of death thingy, you know?

So it’s worth it, I would say.

Any advice I could give? I could write very long reading lists with the result, that you check out some of the books I recommend, and they don’t illuminate you the way they illuminated me, because it’s all different to you.

Finding the way is part of the way, it changes you to the better, you’ll see.

If you still urgently want me to pin down advice I say the following, expecting that contradictory advice from somebody else could even work in some cases:

Meditate!

Don’t be narrow-minded! Search beyond what is labeled "occult" and don’t give a damn what other people tell you about that!

Don’t show off you’re into magic to everyone! You gotta be careful in this world! It could become less problematic when you’re older, but for now, be careful!

Have no fear!

Some here are older than me. I guess they could say something additionally. *nudge*

…means "Visita interiora terrae rectificando invenies occultum lapidem".

That’s basically it. The big secret which is said to protect itself anyway.

Terry Jones as a lady yelling: "Is he naughty or nuts to say that?"

Guess the true inner master has to find you worthy. Initiation can lead there after having gone through 800 degrees or you just get lost in the oblivion of the interesting on your way.

The rest of the occult is no more than a game.

For me, trust in myself always counted most when it came to this. Dont’t know if that’s a rule for everyone, might be other circumstances for other people.

I spent last weekend on camping with friends in Cheddar. It is a place where the real cheddar cheese is produced. Cheddar is a town lying at the foot of the gorge that reaches 120 meters at its peak. The view from the top of the cliff is amazing. You can see the rocks on the other side of the gorge and wild goats feeding on the steep slopes. It is truly impressive.

Spending time in wild places can refresh and empower me for a long time. Being close with nature seem necessary to me to maintain physical and psychical  health.  Contact with nature is magickally empowering in all possible senses. Being in nature can be much more powerful and inspiring than ritual performed at home. That is because in wild places magick just happens before your eyes. You don’t need to imagine, visualize anything. It is all there.

On Sunday we went for a walk to the top of the gorge. We were walking down the cliff to the viewpoint. On the side from the path there was small thicket and in there were goats, lots of them. In front of us there was very old, huge goat with long massive horns!
Absolutely beautiful. We stopped to look at him. He wasn’t bothered by us at all. Being on his own territory he knew we were not a threat. He was lying on the grass, looking at us and smiling.  It felt like being greeted by divine being. This goat is an extraordinary creature and very magickal indeed. I had a strong sense of mutual respect and recognition. We just felt personally contacted by this Spirit.  Unforgettable experience. It was amazing that we all felt totally safe in front of this strong, big wild animal. We felt such a friendliness, kindness and wisdom emanating from him. Very warm, loving feeling. He seemed so proud and confident and incredibly cute in its own way (at least to me).

Anton described this experience from his own perspective in here: audience with baphomet

Here’s Hippi’s photo of the goat:

and more goat….

and some shots of the cliffs and the gorge…

closing, a little goat!

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